Aborted and Rejected but still loved by God.

Aborted and rejected and torn to pieces, my mother didn’t want me so she had me aborted.  I find myself floating and getting lighter and higher.  I looked down below at my mother on the table.  My mother’s legs were up in stirrups.    The doctor was working behind mother’s legs. The doctors and nurses were working hard to clean up a bloody mess.

The doctor handed a bowl to a nurse.  He asked her to please count all the pieces.  She began to count my fingers and toes, two feet, two hands, two legs, two arms, a body and a head and said we got it all. The doctor smiled and said “Good get rid of the pieces.”

I felt rejected, unloved and unwanted.  What did I do to deserve such a death sentence? Tears began to fill my eyes and I began to cry.  My mother didn’t want me, and it seems that no one else wants me.  All of a sudden a bright light surrounded me; melting away all my troubles and fears. I felt peace, love and acceptance.  My spirit was drawn to this sweet presences and it’s like the sweet presences knew my thoughts as He draw even closer to me.  I went into the light, feeling accepted and loved.  He told me that even when a mother rejects her baby in the womb, He would never ever reject me.  I was loved unconditionally by Him and accepted.  He pulled me so close until we were one, I in Him and Him in Me.  I felt safe again, and in a new womb, a womb full of light, and love.  It seemed I floated in this Heavenly Ocean of love; I was home again, in a safe womb.  We began to move upward, and at higher speed.  I had no fear for I was safe in a new womb.

There in this new womb, I felt safe and loved and accepted, my spirit was being renewed and created. The light spoke to me on how much He loved me and healed me, and gave me strength to forgive my mother.  I whisper words back to my mother hoping that she would hear that I loved her and forgave her for aborting me.  I promised her I be waiting for her when her time would come to go into the light.  I would welcome her with open arms into Heaven.

We arrived in Heaven, and landed in a beautiful meadow.  The grass was so green, and the sky so blue.  Even though I was inside the light, safe in a new womb, I could see the green meadows, the blue sky and flowers.  I could smell the sweetness of the flowers. The light said to me. “Little one this is your new home." Soon I heard voices, and I saw faces.  The light told me that this was my family.  A beautiful woman of light greeted the light and the light said, “This is now your new baby. She is your great, great grand daughter. He handed me to her, and she took me into her arms, rocking me, holding me close to her breasts.  She was smiling down at me so happy to see me.  Another face looked down at me, and I knew this was my great, great grandfather.  They were both so happy to be parents again.  I felt safe, loved and accepted and born again.  The light gave me new birth; He gave me a new spirit, healing my wounds and rejection.  The light smiled down at me and said, “Meet your new parents.  He read my thoughts, that I didn’t want Him to go, I rather stay forever in His arms, in His womb of love but He said, “I will always be here for you, my presences will always be with you.  Here in this world you will always feel my love, and be in the presences of my love. I will never leave you or forsake you.” With that I knew that He was in me and I was in Him, I could never be separated from His love. My great, great grandparents shower me with God’s love that it seemed the same as being inside the light and carried by the light. Now I am loved, accepted by my new parents and God.